Hey people!!! I've shifted!!
My new blog url ishh :
http://incessant-affliction.blogspot.com
feel free to drop by!!!

ciao!!

Feeling the wind brush upon my face...
It feels so great to be out in the daylight once again..

-Riel

*[[19th June 2oo5`]]
Hello. hahahs. been MIA lately. lolx. hohoho. hmms. yesterdayy i went to the PCK musical. hahahas. was a little stupidd. but funny. i dun think the musical's as badd as the reviews bahhs. ending quite predictable. hee. ^^, so yupps i went to eat hao liao before watching the musical. cox meet my cuz, Jen there. Den me and my aunt came ealier. so we were like walking about. hahahas. den we were observing the kayaking people. lolx. hee. dunno whether ishh called kayaking or canoeing. lolx. dunn care larrs. den later when my cuzzie and her family arrived, we went to eat no sign board. woo. really nice worrs. and expensive. hohoho. suprisingly Jonas came. thot he won't de. hehhs. he darn macho. lolx. grow until sho tall. seemed so muchh taller den usual. hahahs. i used to be taller than him!! now he's like.. ahh.. i'm shortt. hahahhs. after dinner, me, my aunt and my cuzzie went to the indoor stadium to watch the musical. She met her friend there who so happened to watch the musical that dayy.. hahahs. and i met wan hui!! hahahs. at the interval oni. she let her hair down. really nice lorrs. thot whad she was wearing looked really good. hahahs.

After the show i went to sleepover at my cuzzie's house. been quite a long time since i went there... her bed's really comfy. hahahhas. at 12, we became hungry so we poked at the kitchen and jonas heated up the leftover lunch and we ate it. hahahs. my aunt florence really cooks nice stuffs. hahahhs. laterr, we watched kingdom of heaven and den proceeded to sleep. lolx. hahahs. went to church early in the morning. their preacher talked in a very funny way.. but his sermon's good.. sadd i missed pre-teens tho!! aHH... *sighhs*

Just finished helping my korr to shift his comp to another nice position... made me do so many dismantelling and laterr had to fix it up all overr again. had funn tho. lolx. talked so muchh trashh.. ^^,

anyways, so todayy's father's day. shout out to all the father's out there.. Have a happy father's day!!! and to my dad.. happy father's day worrs!! hee. gonna go watch another movie with mahh bro..

= On the road to recovery. Letting go of what i need to. Hopefully, everything will be the same again. .. =

- Stranded - Riel

[ 16th June 2oo5 ]
Heyys. There have been a lot of things going on this few dayys but i will leave some stuffs out since it's a public one. hahahs. so yepps. i went to benavon's house on 14th june?? For a sleepoverr. when i went there it was already like 10 plus in the night? hahahs. Den laterr, her bro and his friend, tim i thinkk were going to 7 eleven so benn and i went too. hahahs. i went there to buy chocx!! i bought like 3 packs of kinderbueno. or something. it was really nice and tasty..!! hohoho. and i bought a can of milo!! it seems that i hvn't drank it in ages!! hmms. from todayy onwards.. i will not slackk anymore. must studyy hardd! no matter what!! hahahas. must focus..

tomorrow going out with my cuzzies and i thinkk my aunts are going too! cool. hahahs. going bowling!! wooo.. ahhahs. there's a lan next to it. hahahhas. den can walk to great world. i wanna watch mr and mrs smith and batman. i wanna watch!! AHH!.. ahhahahs.

this ishh gonna be shortt. oc is gonna start soon!! finally... hahhahs. after so longg..

Kor just came back. he bought my passion. that's a nice cd track. i think the youth ppl sang it. that's like really nice larrs. songs really nice too! hahahhas. Oh wells.

- save me from this palce.
Heaven knows i'm falling
for you, my sweet embrace
heaven knows
heaven knows i've been waiting for you -

- stranded - Riel

*[11 June 2oo5`]]
heyys. There's not exactly muchh to sayy. Silverr's neck got sprained todayy because he shook himselff too hardd. Then whenever he moved, he'd whine in pain... Seeing him made my heart hurtt. Seeing him tearr and all. he hadd to sadd eyes that borred into mine... they looked so helpless. and i so muchh wanted to help him... yet i couldn't do a thing to take away the pain.. if only it could be inflicted on me instead... i wouldn't mind.. as long as he's okayy... it really seemed to hurt so muchh.. it's just so painful to look at him and yett, i can't do a thingg.. haixx...

Todayy, while Lisa was massaging silverr, trying to lessen the pain, Nikko and Titus Went into my miaid's room and they bit the phone. when my maid's phone vibrated, Nikko an dTitus came out with the phone in 2 pieces. Danggling in Titus mouth was the whole phone plus the sim carrd. and in Nikko's mouth, there was the battery. When Lisa saw it, she got a shock of her life. Afterr getting her phone to safety, she brot it up to me. and thankfully i managed to salvage it. tho the phone coverr was koyat oredii... at least the sim cardd was still working... Laterr, me and Lisa took Tim out to bukit timahh. we went there to buyy a new handphone coverr for herr. and i bought the sister hood series. the secodn and the third one.. seemed really nicee...

Hearing this really sadd songg.. aix.. i feel so empty inside. can't feel anything. just so sadd.. mood swings? no idea.. i'm just. not myself. not being able to go to see energy ishh making em worst... sighhs.. loneliness ish creeping byy.. i'm going to be eaten up soon. my pain seemed to have lessened. .. trying to let those memories go. i don't want them floating in my mindd anymore. doesn't allow me to fall asleep at nightt. in need of somethingg to calm my mindd. i need to scream. i need to shout!! i need to let myself go. aix. gone siaooo...

Xing fu qing le jia
Piao liu zai shen me di fang
Mei you lian luo hao ma

Bu xiang rang bei shang
Xi guan gen ji mo fen xiang
Gai ze me xue hui yi wang

Guan shang
Shi fang hui yi de chuang
Fang bu xia zui xin tong de dui hua

Ni ke yi ai wo hen jiu ma?
Bu fou ding de hui da
Ren zhen de ma
Shu zhe mian yang
Meng zuo le yi ban fen le cha
You bu neng gou jian le ta
Zhe me zuo ba
Kan zhe ta yi mu mu zai yan li ku huang

Ni ke yi ai wo hen jiu ma?
Cheng nuo guo na xie hua
Jiu suan le ma `wo...
Shui rang meng xiang gen sui ni yi qi tao wang..

Lyriccs by You ai di. - Ni Ke Yi Ai wo hen jiu Ma??

-stranded- Riel

Maybe i shall jump into the sea.. .
To end my miseryy`]]

- 1oth June 2oo5`]]
Heyys, wells i changed my bloggskinn as the udder one was all x-ed upp. Hmms i think this skinn looks nice. ^.^ anyways, my parents left for JKT yesterdayy. My mum informed me that they won't be back till Monday and not Sundayy. .. I couldn't go to Wan Huii's sleep overr yesterdayy and todayy, can't go out with Benn and peeps to watch movie.. Aix. Why liddat one?!! Oh wells. I'm a sadd. Sadd girll.

So anyways, eileen came yesterdayy. .. Turns out, Bro invitedd herr. Bleahhx!! Whad was he thinking?!! She came from like 8.30 in the night till 12 plus then went home. She's darnn free worrs. So anyways, i was watchingg Chase den my bro brought her up to the attic to watch too and it was preety awkward for me worrs cox it's like, hmms. how to sayy? I dun really fancy herr? whadever it ishh larrs. Den duringg the show.. . She was like tokking to my olderr Bro lorrs and she was speaking until so lian-nishh lorrs. Got a shockk of my life!!

I didn't stayy to watchh LOST. it seemed so darnned Scaryy. Hahahs. I'm a chickkenn. Tskk. So anywayss. Yupps. i watched one tree hill tho. Nathan Looked so shuaii!! Lolx. Anyways. Chris was crapp. Haylie likes Chris?? No wayy!! Urrgghh!! They leftt it hanging!! Sniffs..

Todayy, mergii told me she lsot her neoprints. Sadd for her.. Hope she findds it tho. She seemed so sadd... Veryy poorr thingg..

So anywayys, Lil bro's urging me to give up my com to him again... Sighhs. Guess this will be it bahhs...

P.S: Happy Belatedd Burffdae to Tiffany!! [9th June]

I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone.
I feel the same thing always happens when you're gone.
And I know you're just around the corner.
But just around the corner is not enough.
It's not enough.

-Stranded- Riel

= 8th June 2oo5 =
Heyys. todayy, i woke upp early. around... 9?? hahas. was going out with my mum. i finally got my energy cd. really gladd!! hope to go to their qian chang huii. most likely, i won't sighhs. kinda sadd larrs. hmms. i bought books. seemed nice. hahhaas. den i bought JJ lin jun jie's album. hee. so darrn long ago come out now den buyy!! hahahas. ^.^ anyways.

so. todayy was a less hectic dayy for me. abit more relaxing.. hmms. Chatted with hazey bout stuffs. Really nice and Fun. Her advices make so muchh sense!! ^.6 anyways. my parents are confirmed flying off to JKT tmrw. and i have to wake up early to fetch my bro to orchad? okayys. cairnhill there... sian. but look on the bright side!! i get to go to orchard to shopp. lolx. and okaayss. i wann go outt on fridayy with E shyen, fiona and Benn. hahhas. Watch mr and mrs smith. oh wells. hmms.

why am i slacking in june when i have to studyy hard and catch up with my studies? why ca;t i seem to concentrate without getting bored and doing something else?? haixx. looks like i really have to buck up now!!

= I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much =

started listening to Natelie again!! ^.^ love that songg.

Basically, hearing all the same songs cox i'm kinda addicted to it. really love the songs. have been listening to energy's new album too. ^.^ JJ's album very futuristic. but nice... yi qian nian yi hiu.[1000 years after] this song rockks. ^.^ energy's wo men rockks.

okiex.. dunno whadd i'm doing liaoss....

[[*can't differentiate a dream from reality `]]

-Stranded- Riel

[7th June 2oo5`]]
Heyys... Todayy was a slackky dayy. didn't do muchh work 'cause i was so pre-occupied with my thoughts... Hmms, nothing exactly did happen todayy. my routine was as usual. Wake-up. Eat brunch. Play comp. Do Hw. Have tution. Sleep.Wake-up. Eat dinner. and ta-daa, i'm here writing this ultimately boringg entry. hahahas.

Just found out that my parents are going to JKT on thursdayy and won't come back till sundayy. Which means that i won't be able to go to the energy qian chang hui and the wo shou hui!! Haix... depressed. It's like. I'm seeing them for the last time and i can't go cox my parents are awaayyy!! =wails= sighhs.. nvm.. hope my parents have a safe flightt!!!

My limewire ish worrking... Yay!! finally. Ares couldn't be downloaded on my comp because of some sercurity thinggs. sighhs. oh wells. This is a superr short entry as it's like darn dumb larrs. no use reading or typing anyways...

my whole blog ish 'X'-ed up. i can't see my blogg things!! that ish entirely crapp. sighhs.. whad ish this?!!

=All love that has not friendship for its base, Is like a mansion built upon the sand.=

=It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,an hour to like someone, and an day to love someone...but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. =

=It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happywith someone else, but it's more painful to know thatthe one you love is unhappy with you. =

=Just because you know someone doesn't mean you love them,and just because you don't know people doesn't mean you can'tlove them. You can fall in love with a complete stranger in aheartbeat, if God planned that route for you. So open your heartto strangers more often. You never know when God will throwthat pass at you. =

-Stranded- Riel